“There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, to avoid facing their shadow. One does not become enlightened by imagining a figure of light, but by making their darkness conscious.”
― Carl Jung
At some point in my mid-30’s, I completely lost myself.
Desperately trying to live up to unrealistic demands from the world around me, I checked in less and less with my feelings, my dreams, my purpose and myself.
I went through the motions and numbed out my feelings as best I could until I couldn’t. I was running on empty. I was miserable and completely depleted.
At a very bleak moment, a gentle voice (or whatever it was) let me know that it was time for a complete overhaul and I could do it – I had to do it. But, I had to do it by myself for myself.
My new life would include something I’d never practiced before –
My life would change forever. I was scared to death to leave behind the unsustainable yet, comfortable life I’d known but, something greater was calling me. I was being pushed to face my fears, clean up my act and be honest with myself. Among other things, my new regimen would include yoga and a healthy, daily dose of something I’d never practiced before – self kindness. As I cobbled together a new way of being, I would consult doctors, naturopaths, therapists, energy healers and shaman. I would talk to people, attend courses and I read voraciously. My gut decided which guidance stayed and which was discarded.
Difficult times showed me that I didn’t want to be defined by my worst moments. If I was going to such great lengths to turn things around, I didn’t want life to be OK or status quo – I wanted it to be incredible and joyful and beautiful and rich and big. I would live my life on purpose. I would make time for what was important to me.
Some of my “worst” experiences were my most profound and altered my life dramatically and yet, incredibly.
I would learn that this is the journey.
Moving through the weeds and navigating toward joy
is always worth the effort.
Life was richer when I was honest and authentic. I was present and I recognized the intrinsic beauty and magic in my life. I was, and continue to be, so grateful. Adversities – big and small – would always rear their heads but now, I felt empowered to face them – I knew that moving through the weeds and navigating toward joy was always worth the effort. Some of my “worst” experiences were my most profound and altered my life dramatically and yet, incredibly.
I would learn that this IS the journey. This is why we’re here – to learn, to grow, to heal, to love and to become whole.
I would stumble upon the works of Martha Beck and learn that Life Coach training was a “thing”. I signed up immediately wishing I’d had a coach of my own much earlier on. I’m inspired to share my healing experience and navigational tools with people struggling in their own journey. The brave clients I work with are doing big things – starting new businesses, making significant life changes, navigating new relationships, overcoming really old belief systems. They are passionate and inspired – they want clear their paths, connect with their power and navigate toward joy – that’s what I help them do.
I’ve tapped back into the girl I always liked –
she’s funny, she loves people, she’s kind, she appreciates beauty,
she wants to see people do incredible things and speak their truth.
I believe in joy and life’s raw beauty.
I believe that everything is happening for us.
I love one-on-one coaching with people who want to do the raw work to navigate forward. Creating retreats is also important to me because we need to re-connect and share in the power of the collective community. And – the artist in me was inspired to created the May You Know Joy meditation cards and Seeds of Intention cards (and more to come!) with those who just want to access a daily dose of reflection and intention. We all need different things at different times and stages – this joy is for everyone – however they want to access it.
I believe in joy and life’s raw beauty. I believe that everything is happening for us. I know our thoughts are powerful so we have to use them for our best intentions and create the most inspired and empowered life we can imagine.